Whats up with this world ??
i mean what did i ever to do get mates who stab me in the back and think they are going to get away with it ??
i did everything i ever could just to pick myself up again after everything that happened....
And now its happening all over again but this time i dont think i have the strength to carry on ...
and pick up all the pieces all over again ...
I thought i could trust them with my life ...
apparently not !!!
sometimes i feel like just ending all the pain ....
that has developed over the years and im scared that this time it might be the last time ....
... But what will happen to all my dreams all my aspiration's ???
Will they just fade away ??
Or will i ever be able to say ....
... Dreams DO come true.
..... I dont think i will be able to trust people the same now. I guess instead of trying to make new friends isnt the answer...
.... Maby i just need to mend old Friendship's. Maby i need to trust the people i have now ?
.... Just maby i need to bring them closer ? But im scared to do that. Cause everytime ive let anyone close they end up breaking my heart or my trust or evan breaking me.
.... I dont know maby some day all this will make some sort of sense ? i know that people always tell you "thats life" and " you learn from your mistakes" im tired of them...
..... Untill that day i guess i will just have to make do with what i have and take more time in sorting out my feelings and trying to make my dreams come true ...
Untill next time
Kat xxx